The Great Collapse

Just noticed how much that Macmillan Cancer Support advert with the people falling over in slow motion reminds me of the ATC 70th Anniversary event at Norwich. SO MANY Cadets fainted, it was ridiculous... not the amount of time they got us to stand at ease, but the number of weak cadets there were there. About 12 kids had to sit down, about 6 or 7 fainted, one cadet who was just behind me even fell backwards, down a step onto some concrete. It was terrifying, there was a huge thud, I heard people behind me running up to him, and an ambulance turned up. He was fine, but I didn't know if he smashed his head on the ground or if they were going to stop the whole thing. Yeah, the people in the cancer advert falling in slow motion reminds me of when I would see people collapsing in my peripheral vision on that day.

Um...

I have no idea what to say. So much has changed in the past day or two. Not necessarily big changes, but changes that have effected the way I think and look at life. It may seem a bit weird and unusual for someone like me to say something like that, but it's the truth. I found out today from the newspaper that my idol Stephen Fry tried to commit suicide last year. I don't know what I would have done if he had succeeded. God. Wow. Apparently he took an overdose of some pills and lots of vodka, but all that happened was vomiting so bad it broke four of his ribs followed by a black out. I say 'all', it must have been horrible for him. I don't want to talk about this any more.
Another factor is the conversations I was having with my Grandma yesterday, basically we were talking about how much she had changed in the last 40 or so years. That got me thinking of course about age and, ultimately got me thinking about death. I don't like to talk about the death of a family member, but since my Granddad's passing last year I have been thinking a lot about death. It may sound bad, but I think of it as a simple thought exercise. What actually happens after death? It's such a deep question. We don't know. We can't know. We can never know, until we ourselves die. It's almost unbearable sometimes when I think about it too much. But I'm far too sane to drive myself to suicide. According to my Year 6 teacher I was a very curious person, but I don't think I will ever be THAT curious.
Anyway, positive things... positive things... I managed to get NerdE into Zelda today. SCORE! Another Lozer, as I call them. I don't, I just made up that word just now, but I can start calling people who play Zelda 'Lozers'. Yes, I will. Aren't many positive things. I don't think I'm going to get used to these people changing the guttering on our house. Every morning for the past 3 days... SO MUCH NOISE. They'll be here for 2 weeks. Eurgh. I just remembered a positive thing, 2 days ago LUIGI'S MANSION 2 CAME! WOOP! It's really good, but the two stand on their own. They both have their strong points, but I think the first one wins just because it was completely different at the time. I think the second one would have been better if it had been released earlier. 12 years ago Luigi's Mansion was released. 12 years. Think about that.
Yeah, this sentence doesn't really belong here but I've just noticed I've got all these days mixed up. It doesn't help that I post these in the wee hours because it's really confusing me when stuff happens. I should write these earlier in the day, or at least before midnight. Anyway I'm doing some gardening tomorrow, I'm doing the same activity which was the reason for that strange post a few weeks ago titled 'Hurt...Hurt...'. Wish me luck. That actually reminds me: The marks on my arm that Tyrone gave me have peeled off. They've gone. They've left some kind of scar, like when you peel off a blister but they've basically gone now. Yay.

I've given it week...

And nothing's happened. Well, not nothing, but hardly anything. I wanted to leave it so that in the next post I would have a lot to talk about, but that hardly worked. Well, on Thursday, so 30th May, I bought lots of stuff to keep me occupied during the week Study Leave I have. Note: I'm not doing work because I have finished all of my exams, I finished them the day before I went to Comic Con, so I have no work to do. Anyway, I bought 3 films: the first 3 X-Men films. I bought Bioshock for PC which I have played a bit of, and I do really like it. I've left it quite a while before I've started playing that franchise, haven't I? I bought the prequel to one of my favourite games: Arkham Asylum. I've left it quite a while to finally play that haven't I? I completed the story yesterday, and I finished all of the Riddler Challenges and Spirit of Arkham things today. So that's done. But today I bought Harley Quinn's Revenge for Arkham City, to keep the Batman fires burning. One the same day I bought those things I FINALLY ordered Luigi's Mansion 2 on eBay. I've left it TOO LONG to get that game, my desktop wallpaper is of that game for cripes sake. I got a message yesterday saying the guy has posted it first class, so I should get that in a couple of days. Can't wait!

The main reason I've suddenly come out with a post to say almost nothing is because I've recently (about 15 minutes ago) seen a YouTube video that's really annoyed me. A Toby Turner video. He annoys me anyway, but this one in particular. He's started playing VVVVVV. I walkthrough that game on YouTube... That's my game... But it's motivated me to finish playing it before him. It won't work though because I like to mix up what I upload, I don't like two consecutive videos that belong in the same Playlist. But it's a goal, he might not even do any more... He will, but a man can dream...

One more thing, NerdE doesn't know it yet, but I've decide the next episode of NDTY will be Sonic Lost World. It'll be interesting because he doesn't like Sonic. Till next time!

We're back

Back to the old grind. I miss Comic Con. I'm still in awe. I'm really looking forward to next year, purely because of how amazingly easily and quickly I found the Awesomeness. Is it sad? Should I move on? Or should I try and contain this feeling and just think about it whenever I'm on my own at college? College. I'm in college. Sitting here listening to Rhett and Link's Graduation Song, I've only just realised that I only have one year of education left before I could move out of the house, get married, and get a job. Life is scary. I don't like it. Why is it that things like education fly by, and the things like next year's Comic Con take forever to roll toward you? The things you want (Christmas, Birthdays) seem a lifetime away, but the things you don't want (PE lessons, CO's Parade (only Air Cadets will get that)) come as regularly as a bowel movement. And yet, time flies when you're having fun. It doesn't make sense. And what's it all for anyway? It's like what Final Destination taught me: Our choices in life. All of them. They just determine how we're going to die. Then what happens? No one knows. No one can know. Unless they die. Seems pointless, we just live to die, why should we bother with the life part in the first place? But why is it that some people's life choices mean that when they die, they have a huge effect on other people's lives? That's how you know you've lived your life, when when you die, you have an impact. But how is that impact going to help you when you're dead? Life's scary. Life's complicated. I'm only 17 years old and I'm questioning what the purpose of life is. Something that Stephen Hawking explored in the second episode of his brilliant 'Stephen Hawking's Grand Design' mini-series. One of the best series on TV. Completely changed the way I look at life. Completely opened me up to all kinds of theories. Only lasted for 3 episodes. I'm only 17 years old. I'm scared to know what's going to happen to me. I'm scared to know what it'll be like to move out, learn how to drive... graduate.

Con UPDATE #2!

(Possibly) Best. Day. Ever. Where do I start? Oh, it was so fun. I was slightly worried meeting Three Bewb Smirnoff, as I always am when meeting anyone new, but he's a great guy. He can draw so well, and on the train there he did some amazing charactertures of The Asian Kid and NerdE, and then me at the end of the day. When we were in London, getting to the MCM was a nightmare thanks to Animamagica being a complete control freak, but when we were there. Wow. Standing in the line, we saw thousands of people. Me and NerdE exchanged ideas of who we wanted to see. I wanted to see a PSY, specifically a PSY in the blue tuxedo from Gangnam Style, and I did; I wanted to see a Nova, and I didn't but I did see a Moon Knight and that more than made up for it, I saw him twice, both times I yelled "MOON KNIGHT!" at him and both times he ignored me, but the girl he was with giggled at me both times. I saw a Skull Kid and Moon paired costume. That was a massive highlight, as was the Judge Dredd, the Hetalia meet-up and the Pedo Bear. There were actually two Pedo Bears but one got kicked out, apparently. Hmm... What annoyed me were the number of Pikachu onesies, Monkey D Luffys and Deadpools. Although there were playable demos of the new Deadpool and One Piece games there so the Luffys and Deadpools were fair enough, but I was really pissed off at the number of Pikachus. I would have got some autographs if I knew who any of the people there were. I thought we were going to see the voice of Commander Shepard from Mass Effect: Mark Meer, but it turns out he was at the Manchester MCM, not the London one. I was going to get an autograph from him, and give it to Elfman. Actually, me saying I didn't know any of them is a bit of a lie, I do know who TomSka is but I don't particularly like asdf movie. I know, kill me, blah blah. Moving on, the Hetalia meet-up was great I managed to find a Sweden, and actually all of the other Nordics, we had loads of photos taken of us in the different groups. Me and NerdE found a Belarus and Ukraine for his Russia, and we hung around with them. They were great people. Actually, everyone at the meet-up was great, a great little community. I keep saying 'great', but that is just how the day was; great. I didn't buy a heck of a lot, in fact it truth be told, it wasn't as hideously expensive as I thought it would be... apart from the food. A bottle of water? £1.90 ($2.88) A salad sandwich? £4.75 ($4.75) Unbelievable. And the Japanese imports were expensive as well, but that's kind of a given. I bought an Essential Man-Thing from the official Marvel stall, just £5 ($7.59)! The Essentials were all on sale! Ha! I also got a Shy Guy plushy, from a stall that had loads, LOADS of Mario plushies, and a Portal 2 T-Shirt which I'm wearing now, it's got the two portals, blue at the top, orange at the bottom, Propulsion Gel falling from the blue portal, Repulsion Gel coming up from the orange portal, and in the middle a Companion Cube, the gels splatting everywhere on impact with it. It's a very nice design. And I'm so glad it fits. On the train back, before we had even decided if we were going to go back next year, me and NerdE were deciding who we should cosplay as. We've now decided we are going next year, and we are going as a pair costume: Ness and Jeff from Earthbound. I've already found this: Awesomeness. BRING IT ON, 2014!!!

Con UPDATE #1!

Don't know why I said that, there'll only be 2, one now and one when I get back. Anywho, I've just packed my costume, money, extra bits of equipment, and I'm now ready to go. Just need to set my alarm, then next I wake I will be off into the morn! You know when NerdE's coming to pick me up? 4:15...AM! WOO! I'm actually quite excited, and extremely nervous at the same time. God...When next we speak in about 12 hours, I will have officially been to Comic Con. I want to buy so much stuff! I've managed to save up lots of money for the occasion. This is going to be so fun! I can now officially reveal who I'm going as: Finland from Hetalia. Strange choice, I know, but I love him. NerdE's going as Russia, Animamagica is going as Prussia and The Asian Kid was going to go as Hong Kong, but due to certain changes she can't go in cosplay any more. But it's still going to be a great day, one I will definitely not regret. Here I come, London!

More Pain!?

Well, yesterday was fun, I got some extra money, found out about Season 3 of ERB and got invited to do some voice acting by my friend Shogun. Here's a link to the trailer. I don't know why I'm putting it here, as no one will see it, but I'm spreading the word none the less.

So, today I had my hair cut. Nothing special except for the fact I had to walk there. 1 hour and 20 minutes it took to get there. Same back. My feet hurt now. But at least my hair doesn't poke out the sides of my wig, so I'm all ready for Comic Con in 2 day's time! Bring it on! Maths exam tomorrow. I'm definitely not ready for it; I'm definitely not looking forward to it. Sigh...