Um...

I have no idea what to say. So much has changed in the past day or two. Not necessarily big changes, but changes that have effected the way I think and look at life. It may seem a bit weird and unusual for someone like me to say something like that, but it's the truth. I found out today from the newspaper that my idol Stephen Fry tried to commit suicide last year. I don't know what I would have done if he had succeeded. God. Wow. Apparently he took an overdose of some pills and lots of vodka, but all that happened was vomiting so bad it broke four of his ribs followed by a black out. I say 'all', it must have been horrible for him. I don't want to talk about this any more.
Another factor is the conversations I was having with my Grandma yesterday, basically we were talking about how much she had changed in the last 40 or so years. That got me thinking of course about age and, ultimately got me thinking about death. I don't like to talk about the death of a family member, but since my Granddad's passing last year I have been thinking a lot about death. It may sound bad, but I think of it as a simple thought exercise. What actually happens after death? It's such a deep question. We don't know. We can't know. We can never know, until we ourselves die. It's almost unbearable sometimes when I think about it too much. But I'm far too sane to drive myself to suicide. According to my Year 6 teacher I was a very curious person, but I don't think I will ever be THAT curious.
Anyway, positive things... positive things... I managed to get NerdE into Zelda today. SCORE! Another Lozer, as I call them. I don't, I just made up that word just now, but I can start calling people who play Zelda 'Lozers'. Yes, I will. Aren't many positive things. I don't think I'm going to get used to these people changing the guttering on our house. Every morning for the past 3 days... SO MUCH NOISE. They'll be here for 2 weeks. Eurgh. I just remembered a positive thing, 2 days ago LUIGI'S MANSION 2 CAME! WOOP! It's really good, but the two stand on their own. They both have their strong points, but I think the first one wins just because it was completely different at the time. I think the second one would have been better if it had been released earlier. 12 years ago Luigi's Mansion was released. 12 years. Think about that.
Yeah, this sentence doesn't really belong here but I've just noticed I've got all these days mixed up. It doesn't help that I post these in the wee hours because it's really confusing me when stuff happens. I should write these earlier in the day, or at least before midnight. Anyway I'm doing some gardening tomorrow, I'm doing the same activity which was the reason for that strange post a few weeks ago titled 'Hurt...Hurt...'. Wish me luck. That actually reminds me: The marks on my arm that Tyrone gave me have peeled off. They've gone. They've left some kind of scar, like when you peel off a blister but they've basically gone now. Yay.